PMarie...I am sorry you are suffering..I do hope that you can find a T soon..someone who will guide and be supportive and help ease your suffering..but until then and even after..please post and let us know how we can help..or if you just need someone to listen..there are alot of ppl here that can empathize with the suffering issue..and some even with the healing..there is hope PMarie...and you are care for here...