So, one of the biggest issues that I still struggle with is trying to focus, in any situation. I get super distracted easily, and it makes doing schoolwork + studying a huge, huge, huge challenge. I want to do well and I know that I can, but it gets so frustrating because every time I sit down to start something, I just... can't. I get overwhelmed, distract myself with TV or music, waste a couple hours, try to come back to the project, and end up anxious again.

I think part of it is because I know that I can do the assignment but I want it to be AMAZING. Other times, I don't feel well-prepared and then that frustrates me. Even when I have studied in groups it's a HUGE problem for me. Everyone (even my friends that do suffer from ADD) is working hard and concentrating, and my mind is all over the place. I look down at my notes, glance up at them, space around the room, realize what I'm doing, look down again, and never really get in the zone. It takes FOREVER to get what I need to done, and when I finally accomplish something (like making notecards for one chapter), I had to take a gazillion breaks.

I have talked about it with my T, and during our last session, I was so frustrated with myself because it feels like I am sabotaging myself and my goals when I end up procrastinating. It's not something that I want, but it happens over and OVER again. I feel like I keep hitting rock-bottom and getting upset when I can't focus, but then, I miraculously pull it together at the last second, do great on the assignment, and then let myself slip back into old habits without finding a way to correct it. Even if I totally botch up an assignment due to the habits and/or have an emotional breakdown in the process, I still can't focus later on.

Does anyone have any suggestions? Classes are going to start up this week, and I want to find a way to focus NOW. This is my major stumbling block in everything I do, and I really want to fix it. I don't know if my behaviors and patterns are indicative of ADHD or if the focusing problem just stems from my generalized anxiety and major depression.

Thank you SO much for reading and helping. This means so much to me. You have no idea.