Button- if you are allowed to e-mail her on the weekend, I would suggest you could. If you know that you are just having the bad thoughts and feel safe enough to ensure your T that you aren't going to hurt yourself tonight or in the near future.. Then tell her that. She will understand that. Most Ts will even say, if you are having suicidal thoughts that they will make a contract that you won't hurt yourself from then to the time of your next appointment. I hope things get better for you!