(((((((((((( Canders ))))))))))) I hope you are feeling better .... You're words are so descriptive and I know exactly how you feel. Been there too. And always wish I wasn't. I think the best tip I can give you is to stay in touch with everyone that makes you feel better. Don't isolate yourself............Even if you have to FORCE yourself to stay involved with life then just do that. The bad feelings do go away and not as fast as we'd like them too. I hope the new T works out good. I just got a new one too. I'm sending good thoughts your way .......... Here they come >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>