For the sake of your own inner HEALING I would say go ahead and go forth with the thought that has been planted with in your subconscious mind...... but please, make sure you are safe (before - during and after) this venture into being whole.
Good Luck - my own empowerment came when I finally told my abuser and his protector what I felt about it all and about them - face to face.
LoVe,
Rhapsody -