Hi innerzone,

I am sorry your going through this and wanted to let you know that I can totally relate. 1st to the moving; recently had to move twice in 1year/ a year apart.. I moved 2 months ago to a place I hate from a place I loved but also a place (previously) where I went around the neighborhood once or twice manic and psychotic. Some of the things I did such as walking around talking to myself and having delusions about where I was and who I was, I'm not quite sure if I actually did or thought I did. I know some I did. Its so confusing. I'll never know, but anyways I was very embarrassed after I came out of it.
I went into a deep depression and didn't leave my house. That was this past fall/winter.
It is true that people who may have seen you, do move on quickly, everyone is wrapped up in their own stuff, so it is forgotton.

Go on with your life and like Anika said, hold your head high- that's always what my older sister always tells me and she is very wise.

Also- I can relate to your bf thing- my husband gets on my case.. even gets mad at me when I'm up all night, like I'm doing it on purpose. As tolerant and understanding as he usually is, he doen't quite get what I go through.
I guess it true, if you don't have this. you can't truly understand.

I wish you peace.