Thank you for the reply to my post. I am glad that no one judged me. It is a difficult situation as I have to make heartbreaking decisions.

I thought that it would be simple but the human heart is not easy to understand. I really wanted my new companion to accept the kids. I did compromise with her by letting my ex keep the kids over the weekdays and I have them over the weekend. I also made arrangements to see my kids once forthnightly. Still there have been quarrels with my new companion on the amount of time that needs to be spent with her. I am to blame for this as I thought it would be easy. Now I see that it's never easy. I miss my kids. I will also begin missing my new found companion.

I'm 43 and am hoping to have a partner to share my life with. It's been a tough life and I hope that peace will come my way. I have so much to say about my life and how I wish God will somehow fix everything. I have such an unfufilled life, it's a wonder how I continued to handle this.

Please, I sincerely appreciate your feedback and hope that I will be able to pour out my heart to the good follks here.

Thank you.