..yep..well I'm asking...yeah not very amusing but I'm serious....where do we put memories?

clearly they are not the same as other peoples memories.

in a world of opportunity memories advance evolve to the point that at the extent of a memory...there are still parts of it that it started with.

lovely but not quite the way it's been...

I have 'sub' memories...under-memories...ones that overlap ones that began and finished so fast all I can remember is the big gap after....and a greater need

...suddenly filled with new memories with the same pattern and pretty soon they are all the same ...unfinished. distorted emotionally homeless

and...it's not like they vanish either, the memories,...in reality...and I'm sorry about this but they actually make the next efforts fail because there is nowhere for them to go.

the memories hurt the person with borderline this is why there are no pills for it nothing can make a person like me forget the real stuff...the stuff that made me happy for a few moments a few days....maybe longer if I was lucky.

the heart is not sick...it insists the mind find a place for new memories.

I never know where to put them anymore I want to remove my brain and stare at it until it feels unsafe in my head so it goes away.

forever!

that right there....I wont forget!