Thank you for responding. I guess i can share a little more info. I am in my 30's and highly religious, or I was and was a virgin. Then i met someone. I have dated before, but never went too far. With this person, we ended up doing it on the second date. I didn't expect to, but he came from out of town and I went up to help him get settled in his hotel room and it just happened. It was like a switch was turned on. I turned into a person that wanted it all the time. I just did it with him, but now we are not together and everytime i go out on a date I just need to get a "fix". I sound like a man I guess, but Im a female. I don't want to be like this. I tell the guy that Im not going to sleep with him before we go and then get all aroused, quite easily and loose control. For some maybe this is normal, but I want to be a respectable girl, not a ***** or easy. Last night i went out and we fooled around so much, but not intercousre. He wants to see me again tonight at his place, of course.. but I am really trying to be more decent. I have a feeling if i go we will end up doing it. I told him that i wasn't going to go all the way and asked if he was ok with that. He said he was, but sometimes its hard to stop. I think he is ok and not my type for long term, but I have a problem here...I want to feel that way. If I had a steady, this wouldn't be a problem, but Ive been going out with different men and doing the same thing. I don't want to get to the point that I loose count of how many I've had. Im sorry if this is too much detail. I just don't know what to do or say. I have I guess boundaries that I can 't physically keep.
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