I apologize that I keep coming back and commenting on this forum..I guess this has just hit some nerves with me...

Hillbunny..some of what you said hit home with me as well..When I turned 18, I took off and kept on going..since then I have moved some 27 times..I like to try and tell myself that I have friends all over the world..but in all reality..would any of them drop what they were doing and come and be with me should I need them? The truth is, I doubt it..and that really hurts me. But I have no one to blame for that but myself. I kept people at a distance for so long..if they tried to get close I would push them away..or simply tell them lies..make up stories so that they would not have an inkling of what the truth was..and if they did come close..I would run..move to a new place and start over..but there are a few that saw right through me, I believe..and a few that I wish I had let in..and a few that I miss dearly..and one particular that I remembered just yesterday how I left it..What makes me so mad is that I forgot..I never forgot how good a person she was..or how much fun we had..but I forgot that horrible night and how we left our friendship..and how I just left her..Thats what I do best...I leave..I split..and I tell myself its okay to forget..because that is how you move on..I stayed up most of the night..thinking..and knowing I wont try and look for her..admiring that you and Jenne at least had the guts to look and reach out to your old friends regardless of the outcome! Knowing how hard that must have been..not knowing what would happen..what will happen! Anyways, just needed to get this out..((((((JENNE)))))) ((((((HILLBUNNY))))))