I do also wonder how you are managing?
Right now, I'm facing the prospect of retirement. It may be premature, but I'll find out in Oct. of this year when I meet with the retirement bd.
I know, as I weave my way thru days with middle school chaos, I recently thought..."Hey...I could be free of this!" The thought is both scary and liberating. If it is liberating for you not to have to work, if you have other resources, maybe that's okay, then!