I feel proud of myself today. I'm writing this before I change my mind. I am proud of myself today. I helped out lots. And I love being up here. Yesterday I was asked to move an iron to press some stitching every maybe 10 seconds or so. I was anxious that I'd end up burning the fabric and the house down. Neither happened. And being told I did a good job makes me feel worth something. And being told that I can do something others can't makes me feel a bit capable. I might even say I'm slightly happy. And pushing away the bad thoughts is easier. If tomorrow is a rare good day, that would be great.

And I know I need to talk like this to drive it home to myself. I like feeling like this: not irritable, enjoying myself.... Here's hoping it lasts. I hope everyone else gets a chance to feel like this, too.