went to gyne dr yesterday. bad. he had a female student with him. i didn't know she was going to do exam too! triggered memory of abuse with ex-gyne dr. even though they both were nice. but something made it all come back
and all kinds of other things.
a bit better today, but body feelings are really still bad.
yesterday i c*t, i still want to today, but my T saw me and i said i'd try to get through till she sees me tomorrow.
this is harder than i thought...i just want to stop the body feelings.
naomi