Hey all, I am a little new to the sight and first time in this forum because I usually hang out in the bipolar forum, but my anxiety and paranoia are the worst of my episodes. Just looking for some insight. I don't leave my house much for anything. I do work, but early when it's night except when I get off in the evening. When I go to the store I usually sit in the parking lot and have a quick drink to calm my nerves before I go in and then by the time I get out I'm so anxious I throw the crap in my car and get moving quick. When I drive down the road I look for cars I know and this is becoming dangerous cause I'm not paying attention. I even saw a car that looked like my ex's and was about to pull in until I noticed it wasn't. I wanted to go to the county fair the other night and told myself it's ok if I see her. We need to talk (because we used to be best friends too). But I let my anxiety and paranoia get the best of me and realized that I don't even know what I would say, or what if she's with someone (which would send me into an episode), or what if she ignores me. So I stayed home. Plus I didn't want to run into other people I know either. I don't go to see family and have no friends, and have dreaded this weekend cause a buddy from work said he would call to go out, but I don't want to. WOW!!!!I do have problems huh?