I'm so sorry that happened to you. Can you do something with your hands to keep you busy and your mind off of it?
Maybe color, or paint, or play in the garden. That way you're soothing the littles too.
This is cool to do.
Mandalas
Maybe you need to write your feelings out like you did before. That helped you some.
You take good care of yourself, naomi.
I'm proud of you for coming here and sharing.