Hey dex, I really enjoyed chatting the other day, it lifted my spirits! This week that I've been off of work my sleep has gotten pretty screwed up, and that can be daunting. It really does sound like your anti-depressant may not be working well. And like everybody else, I say give yourself more credit for the positive things you've done. I know how astonishingly difficult it can be to get out of the rut. It's pretty neat that you have friends that care about your well being enough to call the fuzz! That had to be pretty wild. Just from what little I've talked to you I think you are a really good guy, obviously pretty intelligent and have a good sense of humor. No b.s., having a sense of humor at all is a pretty big blessing for us! Hope your day goes well.