LadybirdC

I can understand where you're coming from. I've had a pretty dramatic past as well, physically and emotionally. So, it feels natural to expect more dramatic events to occur. It feels like common sense, in a way!

Why don't you want to take an anti-anxiety medication? Have you had bad experiences with one or more in the past? Can you explain the reason to us? Or is it just an intense fear (for no apparent reason)?

Personally, I made it through panic disorder by forcing myself to do it anyway. I was against meds at that time as well (for no real reason, I was just afraid to feel "funny"). I saw a therapist to talk about how I was feeling regularly, that helped a bit. What helped me the most was facing my fears. The reward in that style is that the payoff is nearly immediate and strong! Anytime that anxiety comes back up again, I remind myself of what it was like before ~ and I don't give in to my fears.

Meeting with a T, to talk about your thoughts and feelings should be very helpful. Maybe you didn't really spend much time focusing on your emotions during an important part of your life & you need to take a deeper look at that. Perhaps the upcoming move is bringing up a lot of memories and emotions that have been a big part of your life.

to Psych Central, btw. I hope that things improve for you soon. Please do let us know, okay? Thanks...