You're right, I am only just starting to believe there is something wrong. My justification before was that nothing traumatic or even very difficult has happened to me, which I know is ridiculous basis to say nothing is wrong.
My partner recently left me, couldn't stand seeing me sad and felt he couldn't trust me to try to get better. I keep thinking about all of the times I got upset when he was there. I can't explain why I was upset now, they were feelings of emptiness, so really I was being selfish and weak. I really love him, I've let him down and I don't know what to do.