does anyone else ever feel like everyone's eyes are on you, watching your every move, criticizing how you walk, dress, present yourself, etc? i'll be walking to class, and if i trip over my feet or something, like everyone does, i feel like everyone around me has seen it, and they're all laughing at me and thinking how stupid and clumsy i am for doing that. even if i don't trip, most of the time i feel like people's eyes are on me. since all my friends are student teaching now, and i'm a psyc major, i always have to walk to class by myself, and feel like everyone is looking at me and thinking that i'm some kind of loser cuz i'm by myself (although many people i pass are alone as well). i think it probably started back in middle school or high school. i was never in the "popular" crowd, and if you weren't one of them, you just plain weren't good enough, and that they were always looking down on you. my college also has a lot of those "popular/cliquey" people here, and they're always in these huge groups, and when i hear them laugh, i think they're laughing at me, because i did something stupid or because i'm by myself and they're not. same thing in other situations...i.e. the mall. if i'm there by myself, or split up from who ever i went there with, i feel like everyone is staring at me thinking "that poor dumb girl...she has no friends...she's here all by herself...what a loser..." and so on. i know its so stupid, i don't even notice when people are by themselves, but of course i'm always too focused on everyone staring at me...i know this all sounds soooo stupid, but i just needed to get this out.....thanks for the ear.......

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