thank you for the comment. id definitely like any book recommendations you may have. im not in a financial position right now to spend a lot on treatments and meds, so i can use all the knowledge possible. i dont know much about anxiety, so anything youd like to share personally is also appreciated. several more times today my pulse has raced, eventhough i didnt completely freak out. im not sure of the cause. i feel persistent worry about many things, my future in general, my health, money, responsibilities. its like even when im calm and just watching tv, i withdraw within my own mind and worry myself into a frenzy, but it feels unconcious. i just dont know.