WNT2bNRML, your description of "normal" is definitely NOT how I've been feeling, although my therapist said, "That sounds like how normal people feel each day" when I described it to her.
Nope.
I feel:
Days drag on forever.
I'm bored out of my mind.
Everything seems to be in slow motion.
I have no passion for anything.
My stomach is STILL always upset.
I can't eat much throughout the day, yet I'm gaining weight.
I've seen the psychiatrist once, the therapist each week, and it's time to go back to the psychiatrist this coming week.
I've got two full weeks before my short-term disability leave ends and I have to go back to work.
I'm really dreading the job.
I've been spending my time trying to write, but I've found that all I can really do is reformat and get the document ready for publication. That's necessary, but not the same as writing. I look back at what I've arleady written and wonder if I'll be able to do that again.
This is Sunday and I just realized I haven't had a shower since Thursday.
Maybe I am on the slide downward.
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- Purple Daisy -
Bipolar II * Rapid-Cycling
46. Female. Midwest USA. Just returned to treatment in July 2012 after being out of treatment since 1994. First diagnosed at age 21.
Writer stuck in a cubicle by day.
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