**** Long Post Alert **** Thanks to everyone who sent a hug.....And in particular thank you so much sidestepper....your words mean a tremendous amount to me And yes, what has gone on with this person is the worst kind of betrayal. I have had quite a bit of loss in my life, including breakups of friendships, but honestly nothing like this. So, for you and anyone else who might care to know, here's a bit of my story. Nancy (that's her name), was my best friend in the world, and I was hers. Although we live on opposite US coasts, there were very few days that we didn't talk.....either by phone, e-mail, myspace, facebook and ~or a combination of these, and we also took trips together. I live in a very rural area and live a pretty isolated life, and her presence in my life was so treasured. Sadly, though, she was just one of those people (like my father and his side of the family), that just couldn't deal with "real stuff".....like my depression. But the hardest thing was that she couldn't ~wouldn't even admit that, despite the fact that it was painfully obvious. I told her so many times things like "it's okay if you admit it, we can deal with it....I just want you to be honest" (and not treat me like some kind of outcast), but that never happened. So then in May 2012 we had another of these sad conversations (on the phone). Afterwards she sent me an e-mail saying that it was going to take her some time to process all we had talked about, but the two things she wanted me to know were that she loved me, and prayed that our friendship could be repaired. And then she slammed the door.....never to respond again to my phone calls or e-mails.....nothing. Not even a "goodbye". Last thought....not that I want this (although I've had my moments), but it would be easier if she had died. Ok, well feels a little weird to have shared so much, but there it is. Thanks to anyone who listened....... ps....."This too shall pass." Just not sure when.