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Originally Posted by Chuckleberry
My partner recently left me, couldn't stand seeing me sad and felt he couldn't trust me to try to get better. I keep thinking about all of the times I got upset when he was there. I can't explain why I was upset now, they were feelings of emptiness, so really I was being selfish and weak. I really love him, I've let him down and I don't know what to do.
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My partner also left me, partly due to my depression. I was so deep in my own hole that I couldn't see how I was dragging her down. She also has been depressive in the past, so she knew that she couldn't "fix" me and that I had to take some steps myself. I wasn't, and it finally got to be too much for her. She did the healthy thing and left.
I have to remind myself that she actually did this out of a place of deep caring and genuine concern. Just remembering that has given me some strength to continue, and I've stopped beating myself up every day over losing her. I'm still intensely sad about it sometimes, but I'm trying to use the experience to become a better person. I hope you can, too.