marie- i am also a college student (a sophomore) and i completly understand what you are going through. I was so scared on going and seeing the counselor on campus. Everytime i went i made sure that noone was around the door when i went in. I didn't care if it was people i had never seen before. I didn't want other people to know that i was seeing a counselor. I hate my gen ed classes b/c they are so big. so i sit in the back of the room so noone will stare at me. I hate the thought that people are always looking at me. So i sit in the back don't pay any attention and pray that i won't be called upon. Like the others said maybe this stuff has been brought on by the death of your grandmother. I don't like other people to see me get upset emotionally either.
You can get through this there is the light at the end of the tunnel and everyone here is ready to support and help you in anyway that they can. This really is a great place I have found much comfort here being able to talk with people who really understand what is going on with me and not like my friends who sit there and nod their heads!! I hope to see more posts from you and be able to get to know you better.