"Forgive", there is no reason in the world for you to hate talking here. Will we really send out a mass email or text saying "Forgive is depressed agian." (not like anyone will know you). But we're all in the same boat and need this regular dose of meds here to push us into the next day. I can truely relate to wanting to help others because I do too and battle with my mind that, how can I help if I can't even help myself. And sometimes I realize that I will be able to help because I can TRUELY see their battles and now I know how to win them. That evil depression monster loves to sit on me a lot, but I just let it tire out and then pick myself back up. You are trying to poison the creature in yourself, but your hurting yourself too. Just pull it out and battle it head on......you know you have the strength.