after reading what you had wrote, i couldn't put my feelings into any better of words than you stated...i just hate how it starts out as one little, insignificant incident, and somehow it seems to snowball itself into this whole huge thing. i aslo don't like other to see me cry...not even my parents, and i give you a lot of credit of going to your friend for help, because i really don't think that i could have done it. i just try to keep it all to myself as best as i can and try to act like everything is fine and dandy in my life...i'm just so afraid of what people will think and say about me if they find out about whatever...i hope that things are going better for you now that some time has passed. try not to hurt yourself, as much as you may want to, and that urge is so strong, try to fight it. i tried it a few times, and my bf got so upset...it killed me to see what that did to him. and although the guy your interested isn't available, that doesn't mean that there aren't people out there who you mean the world to. take care of yourself and i hope to talk to you soon! :-) *lots of love*

tammy

"I dropped a tear in the ocean. The day you find it is the day I'll stop missing you." ~Anonymous