Hi,

So I was diagnosed about 2 weeks ago with BP2. From about September of last year to about 2-2 1/2 months ago I was the golden child, then all of a sudden- I am the red-headed step child. For 2-21/2 months I was having serious issues with my boss, mostly him choosing to single me out in meetings, cc-ing all of my coworkers on emails I sent only to him and responding in an unprofessional manner (all caps, very rude comments, telling me I needed to improve but not allowing me a meeting to discuss specifics for my development, etc.) and the environment seemed hostile. I was actually approached by other coworkers who expressed concern because they felt I was being treated unfairly (this makes me feel that it was not a perception thing on my end- that it was obvious to others that something was not right with the relationship.) This prompted me to seek other employment opportunities.

The past three to four weeks have been a lot better and now I am getting interviews. I have one tomorrow and one next week and now I am freaking out. Things have improved at work lately, he has not been a butt- he is acting almost like his old self. BUT now I am not sure if I should go on the interviews I just can't seem to get a grip on how I feel about the whole thing. A part of me wants to go in a new direction but another part of me hesitates to start something new, especially in light of my recent dx. I am trying to not be impulsive and make rash decisions but now I don't know what I want. I just feel really confused. I just started my meds two days ago and I am not sure how they will make me feel. I have noticed that recently I am really lacking focus and feel very much all over the place.

Any words of wisdom on how to sort all of this out? Meh.