hey stratocaster

sorry to hear things are so hard with your thoughts :/ i think its great to journal out your thoughts/ whats going on in your mind, fears, etc...

have you verbalized any of those thoughts to your trusted friends or family? it helps me when i meet with others in person who can see into my head to, or see what i see.

are you saying you feel like theres so much to explore out there, but you aren't able to experience it? maybe you can spend a certain amount of time writing... and then block out time to try new things/ explore what you want to?

is there anything immediate you're wanting to discover? what do you think is holding you back from trying it?

sorry if im misreading you. thanks for sharing.