I can totally relate I never show my emotions, nor do I ever tell anyone how I feel. The end result is I do something drastic like cut or try to commit suicide which I've tried 9 times in the past year. The problem is I grew up in a household where no one showed there emotions the only emotion was anger and that is the only emotion I ever learned how to show and that is still the only one I display. As far as any other emotions I feel to embarrassed or I do not want to burden others with my problems. I do go to therapy and still have a hard time getting everything out there as well. So I feel for you and what you are going through.