I am so tired of this...
It is all I can do to get my 15 year old son out the door to the school bus, then I collapse. I used to work 50 and 60 hour weeks at a very demanding job. That's all gone now. My husband is retired and he works on things around the house all day. I am useless. I hate to leave the house.

I have treatment resistant depression. I have tried everything the psychatrist has suggested...tricylics, SSRIs, MAOIs. I have had countless ECT sessions (and as a result I cannot remember the first 50+ years of my life.

I currently take wellbutrin xr, 40 mg lexipro, 50 mg nortriptlene, and ambien. I have gained 60 pounds in the last year. Any comments about this combination?

I recently started seeing a therapist at my psychiatrist's request. I follow all the p's suggestions because I am terrified that he may "fire" me. I do not get anything out of the sessions. Can someone explain the point of therapy?

I really am nobody and I feel less than nothing. Please don't tell me to "hang in there." This latest episode has gone on since 2004. I have no faith it will ever end. I am sorry to rant. I don't have anyone to talk to. My old friends have all dropped me and I can't blame them nor can I reach out to anyone. My H barely puts up with me. Thank you for your time.