I too from a very early age was told not to share or tell any one our business,( family issues )Not to tell any one how I feel , Some how like my feelings ,thoughts were all bad , I felt I didn't deserve to have any feelings, I still can't handle having feelings with out thinking I'm a bad person.I feel like I'm unworthy to have any real feelings or emotions .
My hubs doesn't talk to me , When I try and talk to him , he just stares through me or says let's talk about it later ( which will never happen )
Hugs and support