I am soo overwhelmed by all my thoughts in my head. It's like an argument in my mind. I feel so depressed and my heart is racing and there's a knot in my stomach.
I've been having strange thoughts like thinking my boyfriend is trying to control me and I'm trapped with him with no way out. I don't understand why I feel this way because he wouldn't hurt a fly and he wouldn't dare do a thing to hurt me in any way. He hasn't done anything to make me feel this way. I just randomly started having this feeling. I don't want to leave him. He's such a sweet guy, but my thoughts are making things difficult. And now I keep having these thoughts that he's mad at me which I know he's not.
I also have this feeling of just wanting to be alone for the rest of my life.

And I have this feeling that my family is always talking about me behind my back for everything little thing I do.

I feel like just crying right now. I've been confused all day and I managed to put a smile on for school.

I'm not sure it's the disorder that's making me feel this way. This is the only place I can really rant out my feelings and some people can understand. If I tried talking to somebody else about my thoughts I know they won't understand.