Hey Marie, he's stuck around this long, he must think a lot of you. You are not a worthless person. That is a big lie from hell. What others think of you is not 1% as important as what you think of you, and you can get help with that. It's not so bad, there are an awful lot of non-judging helpful people who would love the opportunity to help you become who you want to be. There are many resources available, some are very inexpensive and some are even free. You are a valuable and loved person, and I'm rooting for you!