I am not suicidal per se, but I cannot think of a reason to live anymore.

My ex boyfriend and I were on the verge of reconciling when I screwed it up, and he's been freezing me out for a week now. My best friend decided she hated me back in February for no apparent reason. My mom died a few years ago (single parent, only child) and my family has become more and more distant from me..I only just found out that one of my cousins is 9 months pregnant, and another one is 4 months pregnant. Nobody bothered to tell me. Nobody bothers to return my calls.

I have been bouncing around jobs for years now..unfortunately that's how my industry works, but I'm exhausted, and there just aren't any jobs available right now. I've been temping but it's not enough money, and it's inconsistent, and it's below the level I've worked really hard to get to.

I'm just so unhappy. I am completely in love with my ex but he hates me (just a week ago he told me how much he loved me..I said one wrong thing (which wasn't even that bad) and suddenly I don't exist), I miss my best friend like crazy, I miss my mom even more, I'm in debt and in trouble financially..I have nothing good in my life anymore. I am so unhappy..I cannot stand it anymore.