Dear Purple,

I am sorry for your experience thus far. At my last pdoc appointment, I was almost convinced that I would try lithium, despite all that I have read about it. However, in reading your post, I don't want it.
I already feel dulled and like I am just existing in life, not happy, not sad. Maybe an indifferent place in between?
I feel for you and am sending hugs your way.
Blue Poppy