ariesmars, i am so sorry ot hear of your loss, loosing a pet is hard as they are part of the family. i recently lost my dog of 13 years old.

i have looked up a few websites for you, just a little starter to help you on the road to recovery, check some of them out and see what comes up:

http://www.bluecross.org.uk/web/site...orialIntro.asp - that one is the uk site but im sure they will have links to other ones. there is an email address and a phone number for support. you could try the email support initially, see how it goes.

http://www.vetmed.ucdavis.edu/petloss/ - im pretty sure thats an american one.

http://www.petloss.com/ - that one is american

and finally

http://www.aplb.org/

there are plenty more, but i think these are the best ones to try, i found these using google.

i hope this helps.

take care and dont forget, we are always here as a back up support for you, you are most certainly not alone in this. you have so much support for you.

and dont ever feel you are worthless, i can see a very special person in you Matt, you are gifted with alot of care and emotion for other living things, that is definately worth celebrating.