And in all the midst of this I am losing my apartment/room at the end of the month. I have no job I am in school right now taking advantage of the post 9/11 gi bill I received from being in the Navy back in 2002-2006. I got kicked out for not coping/trying to kill myself after being put on Zoloft. Was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. They were somewhat correct.

My one dog (4 1/2 lb Chihuahua) bit someone 2 days in a row (2 different people). One being my sister.

My mom wants me to move in with her and my sister if she can find another apartment to move into. There is ton's of bull **** drama going on with my mom. She doesn't wan't my 4 1/2 lb Chihuahua to move in with us though. (There is a really good reason for this) I just choose not to discuss it right now.

So needless to say I am having bad thoughts of killing my dog There totally irrational. I cry when this is happening and just hold on tight to him. I have thought about trying to find a Chihuahua rescue group for him. Thought about asking his breeder to take him back (good friend of mine) even though she lives 10 hours away. We used to be next door neighbors. Maybe my stupid ex husband could take him in.

Which leads me to my other issue. My other Chihuahua. The one we got after my first one. It would break my heart to separate them. It just sucks.

A part of me is just hoping I find a place that I can afford and be able to keep them both with me. It's just money is going to be so damn tight the next 3 to 4 months unless I can find a job to off set my next semester of school.

Then when I get a job it's another struggle just to be able to keep it. I don't have a very good track record.