Dont drink hun it will only make you feel worse about yourself in the long run. Relapsing makes you feel horrible because 5 months is an amazing accomplishment. the meds will kick in after a few days and they will work. Just be patient. It will get better. I was right where you are just a couple months ago. Wanting to use again because I went off my meds. Im an addict. I have been clean for a year and a half this month and I wanted to use so bad but my husband talked me out of it and talked me back into going back on my meds. He was right all I needed was a few days of meds and I was okay again.
I sure hope you feel better soon.