Hi everyone,
It's very difficult for me to post here. I'm probably 30 years older than most others on this sight. I've struggled with depression and anxiety for years and my psychologist tells me that it's hard for me to get "better" due to having avoidant personality disorder.

The problem is....I don't "want" to get "better". Hopelessness completely overwhelms me most of the time. Today I am so tired and keeping my eyes open is nearly impossible.

Sorry to be so negative.