The interview went well, I think. I used a technique my last T taught me (or that we devised together, more accurately) to talk myself into being confident and bright and all that good stuff. I got lots of affirmations for my responses to the questioners (there were 2) and they seemed to be pleased with me -- when I was leaving, the guy told his secretary that I needed to have an appointment set up with ANOTHER interviewer, so I guess that means I'm into round 3. But I left there exhausted and feeling like such a fricking fraud. I pretended I could do this job, but it was just pretend. I look great on paper; even my ***** jobs over the last 10 years have added up to look pretty impressive and like I had an actual career path in mind all the time, and there's always the degrees to ooh and aah over, but in the end I'm just faking it anyway. I can BS well enough to make it look like I know what I'm doing, is all.

I'm exhausted, my pdoc f'd with my meds the other day, and I just want to crawl in a hole (or a cave) and not come out for another year or so.

I hate dishonest people; I pride myself on being as forthright as possible, but I lied through my teeth about myself today and I can't deal with my lack of integrity.

Sorry for getting off topic.

CB