I'm female 17 yo with ocd and I consider myself as a straight cause I've NEVER had fantasies about sex with a girl.Although I'm still virgin and a little bit afraid of having sex but I get easily horny with guys and sometimes I m*****e to them, having normal orgasms after that.But then,the ocd came and fears of homo/bisexuality stuck into my head.I think I can name it as hocd? and since one year before without serious reasons I started to doubt about my sexuality.I am not a homophobic and I don't have ANYTHING against LGBT ppl(I can also say that I have a lot of gay and bi friends and they are great people ) but being lesbian or bisexual is something that doesn't suit to me and it would be strange if someone calls me "bisexual".It's like an other girl and not the real me.Sometimes I wonder why the hell do I think so much about this? I don't wish to be with a woman and I know that I'll never search bi/lesbian woman for relationships.I only had one relationship but I would like to find a guy,the"right one" so much,be married,having kids etc. But I have a question,that confuse me(some of my friends too).
There are some of my female classmates that they enjoy kissing each other,although they consider themselves as straight.I've heard they like it because they are good friends and close to each other and they are united by an innocent love that close friends usually have,without sexual feelings.The idea of kissing their best friends sounds sweet to them,as well as to me.But nothing more! I've never loved a same sex friend in a sexual way.I can't get horny with girls.:S I've heard that sex is the only thing that is not included to a deep friendship,and only if you like having sex with both genders u can consider yourself as a bi.so is it true? is also ture that many straight ppl like kissing each other in a friendly way? thanks I am so confused