Oh Scorpio, I am so sorry that you are struggling with so many "unsupportive" people around you. Yes, that can aggrivate the PTSD, I know, I have experienced it myself.

Ok, you have to learn how to "take advantage" of how you "do" have a roof over your head and for what you "do" have. And that is not about "giving up or giving in" only to make you aware of what you "have" and how you can "look at things differently".
And you also need to make sure you have access to people who are "supportive" and "do" understand how you struggle. Well, there are members here at PC that totally can relate and be very supportive.

It sounds like you have a "therapist" so that is a big plus and keeps you going to someone who is supportive and can help you unravel the complications that PTSD presents.

That "happy girl" is still there, but you have not learned yet how to support her and help her to find her way to "grow" past the abusive people that are in her way of coming out and enjoying herself again.

Well, I can relate to how you feel my friend and I have come forward to let you know that you "can" work towards "growing" inspite of the oppressive and controling people around you. At the very least your first goal is to establish a "safe" place of your own in that environment. It could be a small room where others cannot disturb you. And you "must" get your therapist to help you gain that respect, and a good therapist, "can" help you with that. It is crucial that you and your therapist have a goal of how to survive and feel safe "inspite" of the environment you are in right now.

You have to have support and also learn how to find your own sense of "space" so you can work on your healing. And it doesn't mean looking at the glass half empty, but instead learning how to look at it as "half full". And with PTSD that is a challenge, but you "can" slowly gain with "support".

Have you been able to attain a "private safe place in your home?".

(((Hugs))))
Open Eyes