I just saw the ***** (neighbor) who vandalized my car last month. I didn't even know what she looked like before, but I saw her outside the building today. I was so stunned that I didn't confront her, but now I wish I had. I'd like to put my fist through her ugly face. I know that'd cause a lot of trouble that I don't need right now (I might even end up having to move, which I can't afford to do, at the moment), but I WANT REVENGE!!!! After a lifetime of being made a victim by every piece of garbage who gets their jollies bullying someone, THIS time I want some comeuppance. I feel like NOT doing something would be like saying it was ok for her to make me a victim.

I've been in a rage all day, from seeing her. I even yelled at my poor cats, who didn't do anything to deserve it. Then, for the last couple of hours, I've been crying, on & off. I feel like my taking the high road and NOT taking a baseball bat to her head would be SOOOOO unfair to me. And my life has been SO unfair, all along. But I've never had any kind of satisfaction from the bullies who've made me a victim. When do I get to have something that's fair to me? I've been a good person, in spite of what's been done to me. It's just TOO wrong that I have to be %#@&#! on and pretend that it didn't happen or it doesn't matter. It does, damn it!