i know a lot of people feel this way. especially creative ppl. sort of van gogh-ish. BUT...yeah here it is... BUT...so much good talent is dampened too when we are in an oblivious state of mind.
it's like being manic...i get a heck of a lot done and my mind seems crisp as a bell but then i crash way down coming out of the mania. so my addiction and my mania are not my best friends. yeah life can seem bland sometimes...specially if you've experienced mania...but SOBRIETY does balance the playing field. BALANCE. when i got sober i recall telling my T i was b-o-r-e-d. he responded welcome back to the world. i said, is this all there is???!!!
but yeah it sure beats the alternative.
(always enjoy reading your posts, j  )
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