Anika... No I do not feel that happiness is in the equation. I have been thinking a lot about that lately. It's not 'mood swings'. For me Bipolar disorder means having severe emotional problems. It means having Social problems and even Behavioral problems.

I have been this way since I was nine. I have always been the freak, the outcast. I have learned to live that way. I may be feeling better now, but those scars will always be there and I can't just change who I have become now. I am 33 and will always have emotional, behavioral and social problems. So happiness? moments I would say, moments away from being who I really am.