I completely understand! I have this problem all the time, but mine is mostly with the down times. I like the up times, because I feel like it's more me, but the down times...they're rough.

Why put so much effort into pulling yourself out of the shroud you're in and out of that fog, just to know you'll end up there again? It seems so hopeless. It really does. My pdoc has really been working with me on it though, and helping change my perspective on things. It's amazing how you can change or twist a few words and make something so negative become positive.