I feel a lot the same way too. I think a lot of times people get meaning from these posts, even though they do not respond. That's the point, right? getting meaning or something else that you need from this forum? Don't feel bad. I think we are all searching for some meaning on here, we are all a little desperate sometimes to hear a response when we post something that really matters to us. It's a form of validation. Telling us that yes, we are understood and no, we are not freaks.

It hurts, yes, when we feel ignored. especially when what we are posting is how much we hurt. sometimes we post how much pain we are in, or we approach a post in such a way as we hope someone has felt the same way and will recognize our pain. We all need validation. We all need to know that at least one person cares.

We all need someone, and when it feels like there is no one it really really hurts. So we go onto boards like this looking for that someone. One person. that's all we need sometimes. that one person to look inside of us and say, "everything will be ok". To say, "yes, I have felt that way too and no, you will not feel this way forever". Sometimes it's that one person that offers perspective to the one that is looking for any way out of this hell.

But even if everyone on the board did this for one, what then? The one would still feel as if his or her soul was bleeding, being ripped open slowly and sadistically. Misery does love company and it may make it better temporarily, but in the end we all suffer. In the end we all hurt. We all cry.

I don't know why I am writing this..... sorry to go off topic.