I am frustrated with my T. She has been trying to talk me into taking anti-depressants. But, she seems to refuse to talk about the cons of such a decision. Since I tend to write up a pros and cons list when making major decisions, I don't like this. I ended up saying that I'd talk to the new Pdoc. I want to tell her how I am annoyed that she didn't admit to the fact that there are more than just the positives of such a decision. I ended up doing my own research to come to a decision rather than asking her any questions because she also said something about it would be good if they put it in the water. I told her that I find this remark offensive. I softened it by stating that anti-depressants aren't as dangerous as some organizations would want you to believe. However, it helped to end up freezing her out of the decision making process and I don't like that because I'm concerned that it might hurt my ability to trust her when it comes to making decisions in which she wants me to do something. I am hoping to get the guts to bring this up next week. However, I am no good at expressing negative emotions.
I'm hoping to mention that my decision making method is usually a pros and cons list. So, please invite me to share my list and/or thoughts on the matter. But, I am also annoying because I clammed up when the subject first came up. So it might be because she thought I had never quite unclammed if you know what I mean. I may not be as easy to read as I think I am for all I know. I thought it was pretty clear that I was less uncomfortable with it and willing to share some of my thoughts if she ask.