So... I'm nervous. This is the start of my season of crazy cycling. August - December is my worst time of year for some reason. It's also the time of year that I always get written up at work for making mistakes. For the past three years, every year, I have gotten a write up in either Sept or Dec without fail.

I'm especially nervous this year after my horrible review in the Spring, the threat of being fired if I didn't get back to work, due to my hospitalization (and having no leave time left from having the baby,) and still needing to have more surgery and possible hospital time soon... My boss is not the issue on that, it's HR, the director hates me and has no empathy or compassion for people like me... you know... bipolar...

I'm feeling rather manic right now, actually. I definately got over the depression I was in after being sick (haha, funny right? A depressed person over the depression from one thing but still mixed? so now I'm better... better to be mixed.... that feels normal now...)

Anyway, I'm nervous about the fall.