Hi Tinytin, I am so glad that you found this site and are posting. It does help to get things "out in the open" even if it's on-line. I was thinking that since you mentioned sexual abuse, you might want to go to the abuse forum to post there as well. You may find support and understanding there for that part of your trouble. Keep Posting! By the way, good luck with the job that I hope you find the energy to go to. Maybe it's just the break you need.